The Hallway of Doorknobs: Meet a Part Called Cactus

The Hallway of Doorknobs: Meet a Part Called Cactus

Lynn A. Haller, MSW, LCSW, is a trauma-informed therapist and educator with over 25 years of experience bringing Internal Family Systems concepts to life through story. Her first children's book, The Hallway of Doorknobs, helps young readers meet their protective inner parts as characters they can understand and befriend.
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Meet a Part Called Cactus: Spikes and All

You know the feeling.

A child walks in and something in your gut says stay back. They drop into the chair across from you — arms crossed, eyes somewhere else, jaw set. Or they’re at the dinner table, snapping at everything and everyone. In the classroom, every question met with a shrug or an eye roll.

Your body knows before your brain catches up. This kid has spikes out.An illustrated character of a green cactus with sharp spikes, a scowling face, and arms crossed, standing with a guarded stance against a white background. Illustration by Justyna Nowosadko.

And the spikes work. That’s the thing. The cactus part is a brilliant protector. It keeps people at a distance, which is exactly the point. If no one gets close, no one can hurt you.

After fifteen years working with incarcerated youth, I learned something that changed how I show up in those moments. When I feel that gut reaction: stay away. I take a big sigh. Something in me says, okay, you’re feeling their protective part and it’s working. Sometimes there’s even a small laugh at myself, knowing this might go nowhere. Or we might connect. But I know I need to go into the interaction with Self energy. Being curious and present. Looking past the spikes at the whole person. That’s always going to be better than staying away.

That’s what this book is about.

Five children discover a hallway with doors unlike any they’ve seen before. Behind each one lives a part. Not just an emotion, but a protector with a purpose. A cactus. A fire. A disco ball. Some get prickly. Others hide. Some perform. Each one trying its best to keep someone safe. All they needed was someone willing to listen, because every part has a job, and every part belongs.

The Cactus Doorknob

An illustrated green cactus character with a grumpy expression standing in an arched doorway, with warm golden light glowing from the hallway behind it and a small potted cactus visible to the left. Illustration by Justyna Nowosadko.

The cactus doorknob prickled, Green and round with tiny spikes. Manuel reached out, then pulled back fast. “Ow! It poked me!”

Inside stood a cactus with sharp eyes and a rough voice. “I’ve got my spikes and seem mean and prickly, So people stay away and can’t hurt me.”

Luna whispered, “Oh, I get that. Do you ever feel lonely?” Cactus blinked. “Yes, sometimes.”

Amira said, “You can sit with us, spikes and all.”

Inside, Cactus felt a little softer, a little less prickly. “I feel a little less alone,” Cactus whispered. “I think I can lower my spikes just a little.”

Luna’s question is the one that changes everything. Not why are you like this. But do you ever feel lonely?

Behind every cactus part is someone who would love to lower their spikes. They just need to know it’s safe. Maybe you’ve felt that gut reaction and stayed away longer than you’d like to admit. Maybe their “attitude” got under your skin. My daughter is twenty-one now. When she was a teenager, there were plenty of cactus moments I could have handled better. We’ve all been there. This book is for the kids in your life who need someone to ask the question Luna asked.

The Hallway of Doorknobs: A Journey to the Feelings Inside launches May 4th.

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